Chapter 4: Insecurities

 Life is funny, teaches us many things but on the cost of giving us permanent scars called insecurities.
We may say we have let it go but deep inside we all know the truth. Life is tough when it teaches us lessons, challenge accepted but is it reality. I think not. We just accept the fate and carry on. 

A small incident, word changes the equilibrium of brain. We become robot and work on command. Heart does want peace but how, no idea. Damage is done. Questions come; who am I, am I ever special, do I deserve happiness? Overthinking starts. Appetite dies, mood is lost, darkness engulfs you and you are lost in nothing-ness, a place everything starts and ends. 

We get lost in hope to find ourselves, but do we. Not everyone is lucky like Taylor Swift. We mask ourselves but never the same. We go for self love but actually we are cutting off and living in our own dreams.

Maybe it is tough, but once you hit your nothingness, I promise you will be the best for yourself. Be the good human in your worst, because world have many bad bloods. Maybe it is the situation, maybe not; who knows. But at the end you have you.

Have faith in your good Karma, have faith in yourself. 

Believe, but in what when the word itself has lie in it. Can't trust anyone, but just on instincts. Do it. Cause at the you should be always say Dattebayo.

Have faith, you will make it.

Hasta la vista!!! 

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